I cannot believe we have been in this current season for six months. When I was reminded of this the other day, I was shocked. I’m not sure why though. In one sense, this year seems to be going by really fast. But in another, it seems to be the slowest season I have ever experienced.
Like a New England winter that just won’t go away.
I thought with hitting this “milestone” of sorts, it might be a great time to pause and reflect. A time to ask ourselves how we are really doing. Or maybe this is the time to look at the areas in our lives that have had to change and take a minute to really consider how it is impacting us.
I can personally say that this season has had its ups and downs. I have had moments within it that I have felt our little family was killing it. We were doing great. We had a routine down and systems in place that were allowing us the ability to keep the ship sailing.
I have also had parts of this season that I have emotionally and physically crashed. Where I have experienced more anxiety attacks in a shorter period of time, then I ever have in my entire life. Moments of feeling numb. Feeling defeated. Or being mentally and physically exhausted. It wasn’t good.
But as I sit here and take the time to really reflect, I am reminded that my family is okay. We are safe. We are healthy. All the other things that have happened, they are temporary. Bumps. Hard bumps, more like nasty potholes, but they can be fixed. Or if not fixed, adapted to better fit in this life we are living today.
I have talked to so many people that just want to either hit the restart button or the fast forward button on 2020, as if this year is like an old VCR that you can just manually push the button to make it all go away.
I know you guys, I know, this has been an extremely challenging year. It also probably was not the year you wanted, but did you ever think, maybe it was the year you needed?
Let me say that again so you really hear me.
You had a vision, a plan for what 2020 was going to look like. Clarity. Unstoppable. Whatever that vision looked like for you, you dreamt about it. You felt it. You could SEE it. Then, the world stopped. Life changed. We had to pivot. We had to adapt. We had no choice. Really, choices were made for many of us. We were made to feel out of control.
So that year that you wanted oh so badly, it went away. And the year you were left with looked a lot different. BUT, if you peel away the layers and you get down to the lessons that were brought to you, maybe, just maybe this year became the year that you needed and you didn’t even know it.
Let's dig into this thought for a minute.
Personally I had a couple of different goals for the year.
- To become a coach.
- To hit 220 workouts and 1,020 miles on my bike.
- To work on my journey towards financial freedom.
All three of these goals are still moving forward, but in a way I never thought possible.
My goal to become a coach, that was something I was going to build out over the course of the year and then roll out in 2021 as a side hustle. Instead, in April, on my 38th birthday I took the leap. I asked seven women in the group I have over on Facebook to take the leap with me and let me coach them through this season. They believed in me and took the chance on me. I would have never jumped in like this had I not had the courage to go all in and do it scared. This season helped me do this.
My goals around workouts are still on track. I did create a new sub goal that came out of it. I’ve always wanted to be a runner. I have seen so many people take part in this activity and I have tried many times over years but could never do it. It wasn’t until this season when we were in a place of staying home that I gave it my all and actually did it! I RAN my first 5k back in May after doing the Couch to 5K training program. The difference about this time compared to others? I didn’t break the promise I had made to myself and was more disciplined then I had ever been before. My new goal is to complete four 5ks in 2020. I have two down and two more to go in October and November!
And finally my goal around my journey towards financial freedom. Though we will not be 100% out of debt by the end of this year, and that was never the goal by any means, our journey is still on track. This to me was very hard to believe as I thought for sure something would interrupt it. Instead we adjusted our sails, made tweaks where needed to protect ourselves in a climate of uncertainty, and didn’t look back. As of this moment, we are still on track to pay off our home this year.
The point of me sharing this with you all is to show you that with not only a shift in our lives, but a shift in our mindset, we can still hold ourselves accountable for anything we put our minds to.
Yes, this year looks different, but maybe, just maybe it is all happening for a reason. I have said it before and I will say it again, life is not happening TO you, it is happening FOR you. It is now up to you to find the lessons it is bringing forward.
Please please please do not think that my life has been filled with rainbows and unicorns. When I say it has had it’s bumps, I am telling you, it has had its BUMPS. I mean weekly telehealth therapy appointments is how I have made it through most of it and I am not ashamed of that fact at all.
As I write this post we are about to close the month of September. I’m not sure how that happened, but it is the fact. Do you know what October 1st is? Not just the start of my most favorite month of the year, but also the first day of the last quarter of 2020.
So what does that mean for you?
You have three months, THREE MONTHS to finish out this year. You have three months to decide what version of you is going to show up on December 31, 2020. You had a vision of her at the start of the year. What did she look like? How did she feel? What did she want to accomplish? Did that change? Did it have to stop? Or did you have to pivot and adapt? Close your eyes and remember her. She’s in there still, I promise.
Now do yourself a favor. Take some time to revisit that vision that you had at the start of the year. Determine how far off it might be, but do not just throw that vision away. Take something from it and make the decision that you are still committing to a piece of her, if not all of her.
Now tell me, what is it that you want to do with these last three months? How do you want to show up? What has to happen in order for you to become her? YOU have the power to do this. It is all about your mindset, your attitude and your effort. These are things that YOU can control. It might feel like there is a ton you are not in control of, but I promise you, these things, these are the things you CAN control.
2020 is almost over. This year of absolute chaos will come to a close, but do not chalk it up as a loss. Do not give up, surrendering saying that 2021 you will try again. Do not give up on the vision of you that you once had for yourself. Remember, 2020 might not have been the year you had hoped for, but it might just have been exactly what you needed.
Continue your journey to be the best version of YOU, unapologetically.