If you had asked me 10 years ago, scratch that, if you asked me a year ago if I thought I would be writing a blog for the world to see, I would have told you that you were nuts. Me? Writing a blog? That would be about the equivalent of me being naked in front of everyone that could possibly access this so called blog. Nope, no way in heck would I put myself out there for the world to judge me. Sure, did I have a slight issue with oversharing on my social media platforms? Yes, I did. But that felt okay because it was my “friends”, so who cared if I made a fool of myself, right?
So, I am writing this blog. Why you ask? Because my heart it telling me to. Because over the last 6 months I have done so much work on my own personal growth in order to be the best version of myself. Because last year, if you had asked me who I was, I would have given you a summary of someone who was broken. Someone weak, tired, stressed and overwhelmed. But not today. Today if you asked me to tell you about myself, I would describe myself as strong, dedicated and happy.
So I‘ve decided to share my journey with you all. My hope is that if someone reading this feels any of those things, or that they are just not the best version of themselves, maybe, just maybe, I could encourage others to work towards being the best version of themselves along with me.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a million and one limiting beliefs as to why I shouldn’t do this. I thought if I shared these limiting beliefs that maybe some might resonate with you in different areas of your life.
- I am a HORRIBLE writer. Writing has been a weakness of mine since childhood. Honestly, as you read through my blog you might even think so yourself. However, I am choosing to put this aside and tell myself that being this vulnerable with an area that scares me so much that my belly often aches, makes me believe that maybe putting my words out there might help me to become a stronger writer. I won’t know until I try, right?
- How can I possibly add one more thing to my already busy schedule? I don’t have the time! We all have 24 hours in a day and how we use those hours is up to us. I heard something once that almost knocked me out of my chair. It was the craziest concept. I AM IN CONTROL OF MY CALENDAR. Wait, what? Excuse me? Please say that again for the people in the back. I am in control of my calendar. Anything that is on my calendar, I allowed for it to be there. So if something is on there and it’s not a hell yes, that’s on me.
Challenge: Look at your calendar and see what might be on there that you can take off or adjust. Going forward, before immediately responding with a people pleasing yes, sit on it for a minute or two and ask yourself, “Is this something I want to do, or am I saying yes to this to please someone else?” I promise by making even this simple shift in your mind, it can make a pretty big change in your life.
3. No one will read this. And, what do I have to say that anyone besides my parents (who of course are my number one fans) would want to read? Who do I think I am? You know, I’m not sure the answer to this, but what I do know is that I have recently learned some things in my life that I want to write down. If no one reads it, that’s okay. If one person reads it, that’s amazing. I have something on my heart and I want to capture it. Maybe the purpose is to capture it and share it with my three daughters at some point in their life so maybe they can learn from me? Or maybe, just maybe someone will read this and be inspired to make a shift in their lives and start their own journey towards being the best version of themselves. You know what, if any of the above happened, then this blog did its job. I am not doing this blog for page views, I am writing this to share my journey, possibly teach others how my life changed and maybe help to change theirs.
Even though these limiting beliefs are big and possibly true, something changed in me. I promised myself that I was no longer going to be the person I once had been. I’m not saying who I was previously was horrible, but that person was not the best version of me, I know that now. That person sat stagnant in her life and let life happen to her. I know deep down inside that I deserve more and that I am going to live this life to the best of my ability for me and my family. I am going to make personal dreams and goals so big and so scary that I actually have to become someone else in order to attain them (thanks Rachel Hollis). We get one shot at this crazy, beautiful thing we call life and I am going to be the best version of myself that I can possibly be. I will no longer play small, or play the people pleaser role I had once played. This is me. Unapologetically me. It is so nice to meet you!
So tell me, have you ever had a dream or made a goal for yourself that was so big that it scared the crap out of you? Did you attain it? Or maybe you have a goal or dream in your heart that you pushed down and hid BECAUSE it was so scary? Let me ask you, if failure was not an option, what goal or dream would you pursue? Be vulnerable. Let it out. Share with me what this looks like.This is a safe space.
Don’t forget, to show your weakness is to make yourself vulnerable. To make yourself vulnerable is to show your strengths. Sharing this blog with you all is probably one of the most vulnerable things I have ever done.
Welcome to my heart.